It feels unbelievable to finally be at this point. It has been such a long road. I know being an attending presents lots of new challenges which I am learning about every day. I know I may not feel so exuberant years from now. But right now, I'm enjoying it. I feel thankful to be in a job that I truly love, working with people I respect and feel honored to work with. I love my patients and feel energized after clinic or a day in the OR. I also feel very supported by the other faculty. I feel like that bright eyed, brand new medical student 12 years ago who wanted to "help people."
Last night, after kindergarten registration, I stared at my worn out sleeping daughter and I was proud of this model of motherhood I have provided for her. I was proud of our new house, her new house, the house she will grow up in - I hope one day it will be as dear to her as the house I grew up in just 10 minutes away. My residency baby - she made me a mother in medicine. She made me a better person, a better doctor - and every moment of this struggle feels very worth it right now.