Sunday, June 15, 2008

Love my job?...depends when you ask

This work-family balance is very tenuous. It's Sunday night and after a relaxing, fun-filled weekend with the kids I am dreading going to work tomorrow. I will miss them. Not to mention, I just sat down at my computer to 'check in' and am reminded that I have a ton of email to respond to, a ton of projects to keep moving forward and a busy week ahead. So as I sit here desperately trying to organize my life before the craziness of the week, I have fleeting thoughts of what it would be like if I didn't have to do all this, if I didn't work and if I could just kick my feet up and watch a little TV or read a book...(what I am convinced 'normal' people do).

...and yet I know that at around 2pm tomorrow when I"m in the thick of it at work, intellectually engaged, stimulated and satisfied after helping a few patients, I will feel content to be working and perhaps even excited about some of the projects with the residents. I will walk to my car tomorrow evening thinking about how happy I am with the balance in my life and how I would be intellectually bored if I didn't have my work.

...and then I will go home, play with the girls, cuddle them to sleep and wish again that I didn't have to wake up so early in the morning to go to work.

3 comments:

  1. I know I would be unhappy as a SAHM. But I do honestly sometimes wish I were in a career where it was possible to take a sick day without the whole universe collapsing.

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  2. I feel exactly the same way the night before I go back on-service. I use the word 'dread'. In the thick of working, I am happy, stimulated, rewarded, but the anticipatory dread never goes away. It's like mourning.

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  3. It seems my weekends are as crazy at work just with my own kids instead of the ones at work!! Between, piano, swim, playdates, birthdays - it's sometimes a relief to go to work! I do really love that night time cuddle - and my little early bird kid's hugs in the morning before work - that's when the heartstrings pull...

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